i’m not who I wanna be. I've got a free soul somewhere hiding inside of me. she's been dying to get out. it's been a while since she's come around. I'm not where I wanna be. being weighed down by crippling anxiety. I'm not scared to ask for help, I'm just tired of relying on someone else. I don't need pity, I just need some time. i don't need answers. please don't tell me why “there must be a reason for this” ‘cause it's a battle that I didn't pick. I try to have grace on myself. I've been pushing through pain. I've been fighting like hell. it's hard to feel safe and steady. when you're sick inside your body. imagine not acting yourself. pretend you're ok so nobody can tell. take your pain, go on and bury then they won't panic, they won't worry. I don't need pity, I just need some time. i don't need answers. please don't tell me why “there must be a reason for this” ‘cause it's a battle that I didn't pick. I know this won't last forever. one day I'll be better. I know when it all is too much. I'm still not giving up.